“Stop beating yourself up. It’s time to put the bat down.” – Anonymous
Being Human Is OK
It often amazes me how many times I forget that I am only human. That I make mistakes and that no matter how hard I try, I will never be perfect. My whole life I have pressured myself to live up to this ideal. And even worse, thought that because I didn’t I was not worthy of love, friendship, compliments, jobs, etc…I believed that those things were for people who were better than me. This was something I knew had to be addressed in recovery if I were to grow and become the woman I had always intended to be.
A short 6 years later and I still sometimes struggle with the human idea. Maybe I said or did something I deemed as stupid, or maybe I saw a picture of me that I didn’t think was very pretty. I think most of you can identify with feeling less than when presented with those situations. And for the alcoholic/addict we tend to take to an obsessive place without a solution in our lives. That is why each morning I have to give it all up to a power greater than myself. I also have to talk to those in my support circle, so that I don’t let that negative self-talk talk me into isolation and depression. It’s OK to make mistakes and to be human, we all do it!
The great news is that even if I or you struggle with being human sometimes today, we don’t have to stay there. I have found the more I open up about my struggles the less daunting and controlling they are. I am not perfect and that is 100% OK. In fact, it’s pretty darn freeing, because I don’t have to live up to any expectation than just the action of trying my best each day.
So, if you did something that maybe you aren’t proud of, or did something that maybe just makes you feel less than, stop beating yourself up. If you have found yourself more than once saying, “Ugh, why did I do that? I am such a piece of sh*t,” then you are certainly not alone.
We all have made mistakes in and out of recovery and if we use it as a learning tool to help ourselves grow as well as help another person who may be struggling, then it wasn’t a waste. It’s time to put down the bat and start allowing yourself to be human and recognize how amazing you really are.
Just for today, I am going to allow myself to be human and I am not going to put myself down for not being perfect.
Written By: Watershed AshlingTags: detox monday, keep calm, motivational monday meditation, Watershed Ashling