“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” – Oscar Wilde
Detox be yourself, when I was active in my addiction I tried to be anyone but me. It wasn’t that I always hated myself, I just wasn’t comfortable with who I was, yet. Before my addiction I tried a multitude of looks and even friends. I had been gothic, geeky, freaky, trendy, etc…Never seemed to feel like I fit in no matter what look I chose. I always felt out of place, awkward, and lost.
Once I started drinking I felt like I was finally OK with me. It wasn’t like all of a sudden I felt like I fit in; it was more the fact that I didn’t care anymore. I was free. This new found freedom allowed me to say and do things that normal Ashling was too scared to do. Alcohol also allowed me to accept me for me. It worked for a while until one day, it just stopped working.
Suddenly, my alcoholism
took over and I was no longer OK with being me again. I was even more uncomfortable with myself, my thoughts, and my actions. When I came into sobriety I was so scared to be sober Ashling. And even more scared about finding out who I was, and having to be that person. What if I am never OK with me? What if nobody likes me? How am I going to be able to be me forever?
To Detox be Yourself
There were many people before me in recovery that told me that I was going to be OK and that I was eventually going to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I was very unsure, but after some time of doing some work on myself. I found it to be very true. The longer I stay sober, speak positively to myself. And follow through with positive actions, the more comfortable and happy I am to be me. I genuinely one hundred percent love and adore the woman I am today.
In conclusion, just for today, be yourself by working from the inside out. Detox be yourself
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