“I’m a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work, the more I have of it.” – Thomas Jefferson
I use to think that everyone else was just lucky and I was the unlucky one. I would blame others for all the bad things in my life. It was your fault that I was angry or sad. I never took accountability for my actions and as a result my life became unmanageable, out of control, and my friends and family started to walk away. I remember getting even more hurt and angry and thought the world was against me. “Why does this always happen to me” became my mantra, but this kind of thinking would destroy me unless I changed my ways, and so I did.
The moment I entered recovery and started to work my program I realized that every bad thing in my life I had a part in. If I was wronged, I had my part in allowing it to control me. If I wronged others and they retaliated, I had my part in causing the drama and chaos. There was not one part of my life that I didn’t play a role, but now what was I going to do about it? I had to change my behaviors and thinking and I had to stop blaming others. Once I started to accountability for not only my actions, but my feelings, and started to meditate to change my perception allowing my higher power to take charge, I started to notice something remarkable – I was happy and free. My emotions no longer had control over me or my actions. I remember my heart just didn’t ache like it used to and I wasn’t filled with anger, pain, or resentment anymore, I was just neutral and happy. It was an amazing feeling and I knew that as long as I worked my program of recovery I never had to feel that way again.
Almost 6 years later and this is still so very true for me. The moment I make a decision to stop blaming others, forgive myself and forgive others, stop engaging in unhealthy behaviors, and let my higher power take control, is the moment I can felt like the luckiest person in the world. There is something so very freeing about just being and not sitting in self-pity or resentment anymore. Sometimes these feelings pop up because life happens, but when I take a moment and meditate while working my program, I am able to let these things go very quickly. So, if you are feeling like the world is beating you down, stop and take a moment to change that attitude and thinking and shamrock onto creating your own luck today. It’s never too late to start over because each day is a new beginning.
Written By: Watershed AshlingTags: let go, letting go, resentments, st patricks day