Ahhh freak out!
Meditation To Stop A Freak Out
Most of us have experienced the occasional freak out – some more than others – and found we later regretted what we had thought, said, or even did. This wasn’t because we liked it; it was because we just couldn’t seem to control it.
I remember when I first got sober I would freak out over the smallest things, but when something big happened, I handled it with grace and integrity. What is it about those small things that make me want to freak out anyway? I believe it’s because I didn’t know how to handle most situations that non-alcoholics/addicts faced daily. I was use to the big problems, because big problems always occurred when I was in my active addiction. The smaller ones, I just ignored or handled with alcohol and Xanax. The longer I stayed sober, I thought the better I would be at handling small situations and life. This is what I found out:
When I am spiritually and physically fit, I handle small and big situations well. I may be scared, but I lean on my program and Higher Power to help me through.
When I am spiritually fit, but do not physically feel well (hunger pains, sleepless nights, or sickness), I have a tendency of reacting poorly.
When I am not spiritually fit (missing meetings, lack of applying steps, or not meditating), but I am physically fit, I have a tendency of reacting poorly, too.
What I found most effective is to just take my dealings and life one day at a time. Some days are going to be better than others. There will be days I will be able to take on the world, while still other days I may not even want to get out of bed. As long as I take life as it comes, I seem to do well. It is only when I allow my will and fear to take over that I start to feel stressed and those pesky little “freak outs” come into play. The good news is that I have a program of recovery to help me get back on track so that when I do mess up (and I will because I am human), I can attempt to correct my wrongs and move on. If I wake each morning asking my Higher Power to help me stay out of self and look positively at the world without expectations, chances are that I’ll be Okay.
Over the years I have noticed that my freak outs have become less and less. They are not totally gone, but they certainly are not an everyday occurrence – progress, not perfection. Let today be the day that you just allow yourself to relax and not freak out over whatever issues might be blocking you from being happy. One day at a time, we face this world together.
Written By: Watershed AshlingTags: keep calm, motivational monday meditation, Watershed Ashling