If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them. – Page 83-84, AA Big Book.
The promises that can be found in the big book of Alcoholic Anonymous sometimes seem too hard to believe for most people in early recovery. Today's meditation is focused on one particular part of the promises, the part where it tells us that we will not regret our past nor wish to shut the door on it. What this statement basically means is that we don’t have to forget or neglect our past in order to be happy today and tomorrow. We actually will see how our past can and does benefit our present and future. It is exactly because of our past that we are able to not only learn, but grow into the sober people we are today or who we are to become. We also see greatly how our past experience allows us to help others recover from drug addiction and alcoholism. How would anyone struggling with addiction or alcoholism believe us if we didn’t have some sort of war story to share about our drinking or drug use?
Keep Calm & Never Forget
For most of us, we came into recovery beaten, angry and fearful. We held our heads down from the weight of our shame and guilt as result of our actions and others. We felt that nobody could have possibly done the things we have done or even think the things we have thought. We believed in our heart of hearts that as long as we were clean and sober we were going to relive those moments daily without any sort of reprieve. We thought this until someone told us otherwise, that someone was the person who felt the exact same way we did when they first got sober. Had we not been there before, experienced those painful experiences, we would not have been able to connect with another alcoholic/addict on that level. The longer we stayed clean and sober, the more step work we do in any fellowship we choose, the more we were relieved of that bondage. Sometimes we even experience that same feeling when we act out in recovery and we are quickly reminded of the pain to either change or pick up over it. We hope that the pain is just great enough to continue in recovery, because we have seen what it's like on the other side. We know today how to keep calm and never forget because our experience can benefit others. Had we not experienced everything we experienced in and out of recovery, we would not have been able to help others on the level we are able to, for that, we are grateful.
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